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POEMS
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Signing the Kills
That might have been me, the boy you saw walking below the smokestacks. All night he crossed the bridges between boroughs, hitch-hiked rides beneath the rivers. He stood spread-eagle in the silver webbing on a dare that came across the airwaves of his own voice, climbed Hail Mary up the ladder of enormous cylinders, fuel tanks and water towers, sprayed the several syllables of invented names, tagged overpasses and the underbellies of train trestles. He walked until it seemed his voice could mimic even the sound of shoes slipping on roadside gravel, the belt rubbing skin on his hips, the straps of his singlet, the chain clinking against the Saint Christopher he still believed in. He baited pigeons and seagulls to play Saint Francis and he would have tagged them too, if they’d come. He walked until morning smoke clouded the stars above the Kills and doused the distant city’s lights. He tossed the rattling empty spray-can and walked until he couldn’t be distracted. He walked until that voice was finally quiet. He walked until those slow clouds started to billow like offerings at matins and he was emissary of a generous silence. from BRIDGE AND TUNNEL
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Mike Devlin
The dairy light, he called it, in any weather when he delivered—fog eddies from Arthur Kill, sun half an hour high over Merck, the morning divided by smokestack. Temper’s teacup, a man’s no more than a punter’s error, he liked to say. He hummed “Ave Maria” through the baritone kazoo of tracheotomy, circus shadow of his church choir tenor; for kids, he buzzed the Yankee Doodle like electric razor or flexed his arm and blackened ship tattoos dropped anchor under a war wound’s purple chop. After the dairy cut his route, he became our oldest paper-boy. Sack slung around his shoulder and cradled like a headless cello, we saw him more often, his walk an economic waltz. Warm afternoons, he propped a shoe-shine box beneath the awnings of Truppa’s deli, bullied tips from all his customers. He slipped his gauze, pulled the patch off his blow-hole, neck-smoked a hot-boxed Camel to win the hardest cases. The night Mike died, men emptied out of Pete’s: Knights, Vets, Legionnaires, Sons of Italy. They parked a phonograph on the fire-escape and played his seventy-eights. Crackling Irish tenors rose along rusted, ivy-covered slats, zigzag ladder and window grills, to sing us to sleep. Later bottles dropped, a pipe burst, the record player smashed in the alley. Beat-cops broke it up before morning twilight, his old delivery hour. from BRIDGE AND TUNNEL
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IN THE KILLS And the LORD said to Satan, Behold, he is in your hand. The Book of Job (6: 2) I. Comforter to Job Silt the kills with creek-bed sand when morning branches from tree of heaven Catch crab apples floating tidal wash cordgrass cattail and the common reed Vault trolley car cables flattened barges gray caboose with rusted couplings Start shorebirds from their hidden nests or wind-cropped birch and stunted locust Dry cattail punks on rotting docks the tarpaper roofs of pilot shacks Span bars and flats and brackish streams the spits and shoals and marshwort strands Pass oil tank farms and leaning beams kill-bottoms dredged for sunken cars Cross railroad yards where flatbeds haul median blocks bulkhead slabs and loader cranes Scale caving roofs of gutted mills the paint factory’s empty window frames Stand evenings under broken skylights where elder bends and spike grass grows II. An Audience Pick up a rifle—wrist rocket—or just a rock— for God’s sake, knock me down mid-air. These kills are filled and bilked. I’ve flown over the smoke like kingfisher come for morning offerings, more flights from Newark, tower lights, and lights which blink in answer on the airplane’s wings, and ringing the city’s throat, or girding its waist— its gilded waste—a whole necklace of lights, a belt of tiny bird hearts, in turn replaced by one rude stone, the sun rising through mist behind the harbor. There’s no relief in drink. Drag me through cattail punks, tie my wrists to gun racks, ankles to pick-up bumpers and quarter me—lay me down in landfill, marshwort take me under, weigh me down while suckers plunder flesh from my arms and legs, nibble my toes— just toss the undertow whatever’s left. And where I come to rest, let thistles grow instead of barley, cockle instead of grass. He sees my ways and counts my steps—He gives no answer—though it’s all I’ve ever asked. III. Answer to Job Have you kept watch beyond the skyline of blue fires rippling from steel towers, squat brick chimneys belching jetties of yellow smoke, the networks of PVC pipe and signal lights, train tracks and bridges, tug-boat docks and loading cranes? Have you conjured kelp from the rivermouth, steelheads to swim the canal’s still water, turtles to amble over car doors and batteries? Have you towed horseshoe crabs in your wake, the silvering over at evening, grey-backed wingspan of herons landing, low-tide along the marshwort strand, rose-lit and blinking? Where were you when I carted sleep through the kills? When I rode horseback, did you canter up the river path and circle the refinery? Have you shied at the lights of chimney fires, reared up and been bridled? Can you wake men when they’re strapped to your back like saddles? Do you rust girders of Leviathan plants with rain you drive from the sky, tide you draw up past sinking barges? Who can stand before me? And who will wade the kills to jimmy factory doors, start old assembly lines, who fix gutted walls, caving roofs, when everything under the sky is mine? IV. Settling Up I’ll wear self-loathing like sacking sewn from weeds. I’ll cake my face with mud, the foulest grit, killbottom silt. The road I’ll hitch exceeds the Turnpike’s reach. I’ll cross Route One and slit some dragon’s throat, blood-soak the old stone paving on Saint George Avenue. Crows will circle, raving. Wait. Highways, billboards and oil drums, the raw lamplight around refineries, the distillery with towers flaming, lovely, deadly—you see (though beautiful at night) they’re less than straw. Brooks, rivers, creeks wash inland seas with silt and chem-plant seep. But I am a tide which fills the empty spaces. I spread beyond the kills; I come like water, restoring where you’ve built. |
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